Last week I was disappointed I didn’t gain weight. This was when I realized I might be sabotaging myself.

During the great feline food incident, I stepped on the scale the day after eating way too much chili and was surprised to see that my weight had not changed. It was still 176. That was strange. I was certain all the eating would have made the scale go up. That or the fact that I’d skipped my cardio the day before. But it hadn’t. I was still at 176. Meaning the weight I’d lost earlier in the month was still pretty much gone. This was weird because I’ve been hanging out at 180 for about five months now. I’m used to the numbers going down for a bit and then bouncing back up a bit and then descending once again only to ascend a week later. It’s been a while since a loss has stuck.

I was looking down at the nail polish that’s still on my toes two months after my brother’s wedding and I realized [...]

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When I was at the BlogHer convention this year one of the first stabs people made at small talk was to ask, “What do you blog about?” The first time I was asked this I replied without hesitation, “I’m a weight-loss blogger,” but immediately realized that coming from a mouth attached to a body wearing a size small t-shirt this sounded KRAZEE. Quickly I threw in, “I’ve lost 200 pounds!” in a desperate attempt to justify my blog’s purpose, as if I was screaming, “See! I had a legitimate medical reason to lose weight! I’m not some kooky thin girl that hates her body and thinks she needs to lose 50 pounds to become the emaciated cover girl for Anorexia Annual. Okay? Me not crazy! I’ll stop yelling at you now!”

However, sticking in that rider at the end wasn’t that much better because people kind of freak out when they learn how much weight I’ve lost. After I told one girl, her eyes popped out of her head and we had to crawl around on [...]

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