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Weight: 307 – Pounds left to lose: 147

I know I shouldn’t be disappointed about losing 2 pounds this week and 2 pounds the week prior, but I am. Those weeks when I’d lose 7 or 10 pounds were bitchin’. But now it seems I’ve settled into a slower, healthier, yet more frustrating loss rate.

Part of me is saying this is better because it means I’ll be less likely to have loose skin at the end. It’s also a more natural and healthier rate of weight loss. But another part of me is screaming like Veruca Salt in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, “I want it now!” I want my brand new skinny bod now, not a year and a half from now, which is how long it will take at this rate.

Pile on top of that the fact that it will only get harder to lose weight as I approach my goal weight. My brother has been fluctuating within 20 pounds of his goal weight for months now, though perhaps his systematic cheating contributes to that.

I think part of the problem is that I’ve been eating some things I thought were on the diet, but aren’t. I had a couple Quiznos salads that I thought were okay, but after consulting with my brother I realize they might have been worse for me than I thought. So, I’m laying of the Honey Mustard dressing (oh God that was good stuff) and making sure they don’t put bacon on it anymore.

I’m also going to start a weight-lifting program, which I’ve been meaning to do for months. More muscle mass means more calories burned. I also wouldn’t mind being able to open the pickle jar without assitance. Now, I just have to go find information on weight-lifting. Leg work is so much fun, not.

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Kimberly • October 27, 2008 at 2:25 pm

Hey PQ! Its SimplyKimberly. I am trying to read your archives in line with where I am in my weight loss. Today I hit 306.8. I’m on the verge of going below 300 and it is freaking incredible. The Veruca Salt comment made me laugh because that is exactly how I feel. I lack the patience, but part of me is also a little p’od because I’ve lost an incredible amount of weight already and can’t be that happy because I’m STILL fat! Its hard to tell people how much I’ve lost because I know they are thinking about how fat were you before? But if I keep focusing on today, then eventually I will get to the tomorrow where I am thinner and healthier and can wear a clothing size that starts with a 1 instead of a 2 or a 3.

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J • January 30, 2009 at 8:34 pm

I am happy that I found this page. I just hit 307 and I am the heaviest that I have ever been. I have been feeling alone, and ashamed and worthless and wanting to completely give up on everything, life included. But I know now, that I am not alone, and you give me hope that I can do this. I am just so tired. It seems like I have been trying forever. I am so very tired…

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S. • February 16, 2011 at 10:26 pm

Hi I have been really depressed i have tried so many diets and I just cant get this weight off I weight 307.8 all i have lost was 8 pounds since two years ago it is just so hard, I am a food addict and i am so desperate to lose this weight. I just dont know how?

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